if liking cute clothes cute colors and cute plushies is childish then fuck i'm gonna be childish because you know what i missed out on the first 21 years of my life and you bet your ass i'm going to use my time now to recoup that because respectability politics are fake
if older trans women are about to denounce me for "lost childhood syndrome" or whatever bullshit they can get bent honestly
now that i can treat myself to the things i missed out on that's absolutely what i'm going to do instead of languishing forever in what could have been