i wish i also felt positive in being trans but for me it's all struggle and little payoff and seeing others celebrate it without me feels very othering
i've been on hrt for 8 years and all i got was this lousy t-shirt. i can't feel like one of the girls and i can't feel like one of the other girls either.
maybe i just won't fit in no matter what gender or homones i have in my meat shell.
@mavica_again i’m
never going to fit in either, but that was never my goal. I only wanted to be happy with myself
@bri_seven fitting in was never so much a goal as it is something i yearn for to be happy with myself
i'm a social creature. i've been left with nothing but my own devices for almost 3 decades. i want to be pestered. i want to be a part of something.
@mavica_again it’s been this way since i was 8. I am happier as a woman and that helps with being social, a lot. but I am convinced that “friend groups” or whatever are either a mythology, or something I probably don’t really wanna be a part of.
being queer means building your own space to be a part of.
@bri_seven as an objective baseline i'm happier as a woman too! i guess that's not what i meant.
and trust me i've been trying to build my own spaces for a very long time. i founded this instance 6 years ago.
