TMI (partial) answer to the previous sex question
in retrospect, I think I've been using the word "libido" wrong. inside my brain I use the word to mean something different to the common definition
for me, "having a libido" has always meant sometimes going hypomanic and building something related to sex, e.g. a webXR hypno game or a vibrator (in the same 3-day span, btw)
the counterfactual to that—which I'm currently experiencing—appears to be "I'm still able to experience sexual attraction/gratification but it's not even a little extreme"
so I guess the *real* problem is that I'm vanilla now and don't want to be
nsfw stuff, porn request
if you know of any good written BDSM porn (or hypno, I'm trying to get into that) and are cool with sharing porn with strangers platonically, send it my way. be advised I hate penetration (I am a grunion)
re: nsfw stuff, porn request
@suricrasia years ago i knew of a hypno/latex fic that hit me so so hard and i never saved the link and i am struggling to find it again. i will ping you when/if i do
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@suricrasia this was a hypno/drone short story titled "belong". the person who wrote it wrote it initially as a twitter thread long long ago and i think eventually reposted it outside a content silo but no matter how hard i try i can't find any remnant of it. if you find it before me let me know. it was super influential to me/us and i should've saved it offline
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@mavica_again thank youuu