it's funny, on one paw i miss chatting one on one with people on MSN, on another i feel discouraged to do so in any modern fashion today

and i can't put my digit on what exactly changed. is the difference in UI/UX paradigm all there is to it? did i change? did my circles change?

i love getting messages from people. if you're a mutual and i haven't talked to you in ever and you want to please message me. this is a problem on my end

i think for the past 10 years i shifted from being close to people and shut myself into being close only with our polycule while communal spaces either abused me or banned me outright. i turned into a really socially anxious creature but the need for connection is still there