maple classic™ 
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i wish i didn't have such a visceral depressive reaction to just thinking about certain people because i know it's irrational and they haven't done anything against me and i'm just envious of them and i feel guilty about it and it makes me distance myself from half the fediverse
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i don't know how to fix this on my own.
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sometimes i literally start hyperventilating and crying the moment these thoughts pop into my head
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i swear im trying to be a better person
im sorry im not
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i want to get better. i want to not have to mute so many people out of envy. but it hurts so much and i don't know how to fix it