maple classic™ 
mh -
i feel like i can't do anything without someone holding my paw and guiding me through it
somehow i haven't always been like this or somehow it's selective, because i did plenty of stuff by myself around 14-16 years old
now i don't do anything unless someone walks me through it or at the very least accompanies me while i do it and i wish i could fix that because i feel so utterly useless because of it
mh -
i taught myself basic from quickbasic docs alone at age 11
i wrote a whole game with it once on the sega genesis using basiegaxorz
now i can't do anything of value or substance on my own
mh -
this makes me feel even worse when i see people doing solo projects all the time which is super very common here on mastodon