in which a wigglytuff ponders her one gender wibble
so i think i came up with a really good metaphor to explain my one sort of gender feel wibbly -
it's really just that some days, if you listen closely, you can probably hear somewhere in my brain a tiny wee scotsman yell I'M GIVIN 'ER ALL SHE'S GOT CAP'N, BUT WE GOTTA CUT POWER TO THE GIRL SYSTEMS TO MAKE PROPULSION/LIFE SUPPORT STABLE
in which a wigglytuff ponders her one gender wibble
because in all honesty, i think that i am not meaningfully different from cishet enough to give myself a different label.
it's just that sometimes chronic pain and fatigue mean that the power for the girl systems get run at 80% instead of 100%. and it's solely connected to pain and very much a sensation of "i don't have the resources to do all of this at once, although i'd like to, so something's gotta give".
in which a wigglytuff ponders her one gender wibble
i honestly don't think that i gain anything from exploring other labels and trying to insert myself into communities here.
"i feel solid i'm a girl, but on very bad pain days, i sometimes feel like girl at 80% saturation. girl at 5 inches to the left. nearly but not quite girl. heterosexual tho." if i tried to call myself queer for that, i think that i'd be seen as just an interloper - and i'd feel like one too.