@June@kitty.town oh i might be able to actually help with this
think of anger as like tension or tightness. if you don't know where to get your bearings, maybe do a little checklist. are you breathing quick? is your stomach feeling fluttery or like you've got heartburn? are you clenching your teeth? are your shoulders tight? are you scowling and making your face bunch up with knitted eyebrows? are you breathing 'high', more near your throat, or 'low', in your belly?
You might be right.
But the answer that keeps coming to me is "In my soul. Deep, deep in my soul, welling up in an endless fountain of rage that's ready to burst forth and scald the earth for light-seconds in every direction. For an age, the sky will be ash and the rivers run red with toxins. So, basically, my rage is an extraction capitalist ready to bring on an extinction event for my own satisfaction."
@mwlucas @June@kitty.town however, this will probably not help the therapy to get anywhere, as the point of this exercise is more or less to link emotional hurt to the physical self so that we can recognize the physical symptoms, often to head off a bigger emotional snowball to come hit our heads clean off our shoulders.
e.g., "boy, my shoulders are tight. am i feeling anxious? what's making me anxious? hmm. i should do some self-care."
@mwlucas @June@kitty.town well, yes, and also needs to know the source of the confusion. therapy is, after all, a partnership - a back and forth - a dialog. if you're unhappy with your therapist, i encourage you to go find another that you are more comfortable with, so that you feel empowered to ask your therapist things like "could you be more specific". you are, after all, paying them. i'm just a rando shmuck on the internet who jumped in with perhaps-topical advice to a stranger. v:
@wigglytuffitout @June
You're probably right.
This is where the therapist needs to ask more specific questions, like we pay them for.