....just don't examine that last bit too hard and realize just how much of my fanfic is "bad person struggling to be better", at least not before you look at Run Rabbit Run!Snape and how he is going to be stuck for the near-entirety of the fic like a mosquito in amber in the gap between "it would be bad to say this and do this but i've just done it anyway. shit. fuck"

at least until he meets God who is the barmaid in the afterlife

it's

one of those fics?