Its hard going from 'am male, why would I not be that?' and gender binary thinking to 'I can l literally influence what gender I want to be today by choosing what type of music I listen to on the walk from my bus stop and office' and accepting that that might be a real thing.
@storm I've become consciously aware in the past couple years that I don't have any actual attachment to my gender, but conveying myself as a cis male makes my life easier. In my polyamorous network, this makes me one of the only cis presenting people, and also de facto diplomat as a familiar point of reference to interact with for cis people. I've been trying to decide for a while whether I'm okay with this in the long term or if I would prefer to begin expressing myself as more outwardly queer
@storm My gender is "eh, whatever" I identify most with male because that's what I've been all my life, but I get the gender euflorials when I'm addressed in feminine terms. What do I want? To burn down the system and build something better. For now my gender doesn't matter to me. It's a reference point for other people to identify with. A couple of my partners say that's just how it starts and I'll eventually swing towards wanting to be more outwardly queer. For now, I'm enough for myself.
@Anarkat Hearing other people describe their gender and figuring it out using terms like years helps a lot.