casataco @Casataco@computerfairi.es

oh cool it's decemeber! *grieves & grieves & grieves & grieves &*

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

Music art human experience existence meaning life

Like really what reason do I have to continue?

Honestly the posts made here kinda just.... feel like nothing more than the void. I know no one here and that is both liberating and isolating.

I used to be scared of the pain of death and of the issues I would cause others. Now that I lost something I anchored to so hard, and now that I dont have the motivation I had pre covid to strive for a better life, I really feel like the pain of dying doesnt outweigh the constant emotional pain I feel every day. Especially from seeing that persons account. I just cant.... deal with it. I want to end it. Permanently.

Friends asking me if Im ok and Im like no haha but really Im like brother I am one hop skip jump away from completely ending it just one bad bad situation

@SteelWool that used to be one of my all time favorites. I did watch it completely and enjoyed every bit of it. But bocchi is just... something special. It captured my heart with the passion that went into it and the story that is told about a girl who just wants to be a better version of herself in a way we can mostly relate to. A very human way.

One day I will snap and unalive or just have the most heart wrenching catharsis I have ego death and finally feel normal we will see what happens first

what do I do with life now that bocchi the rock is over?

@YoteDragon stares back