just logged into a forum I used to be a part of years back for the sake of shaving away some old personal info that I don't want floating around the internet
took a look around some of the currently active threads while doing so, and holy crap there was so much far-right stuff everywhere
if you need me I'll be hiding somewhere in the back of the instance, never leaving or going back outside.
social stuff, personal meta (~)
i sometimes wonder if i'm way too fucked up to be able to connect with people that don't have baggage and trauma of some kind
it's kinda weird. it's like when i talk with or see people with little to no baggage, i don't even know how to engage. they don't tend to either.
it's like being a different kind of human, which is weird to conceptualize but makes sense. but means that empathy is a hard thing to build across that line.
dreams
I had a dream last night that I was back in high school, and one of my classmates had somehow gotten my parent's credit card info, purchased $10,000 worth of red bell peppers, and had them delivered to the school with my name on them.
So when I went in the next day, everyone was either looking at me with pity or just sort of making fun of me, while I had no idea what was going on until much later on, at which point I tried to just play it cool and shrug it off while internally panicking
my primary occupation at this point in time is making italian (yes, I'm aware that they aren't actually italian, that's just what people call them x.x) cream sodas for @Scarly on demand
my goal is to eventually build up an absurd flavor collection, combine this with an expanded coffee repertoire, and cement my role as her personal barista
@Scarly "So this is Pleroma one, and -this- is Pleroma two..."
Chel: "NOW KISS!"
i swear, i'm mature
selfie (actual selfie w/ eye contact)
i really thought about posting an ear and a mouth or somethn to go along with my last selfie which was just eyes, but since my concussion i am not so patient, so im posting my whole face instead (pic is from this year but not new, lol)
im told that im cute, but i rarely believe
now to convince @Chel to post one as well so people don't think that we're just one person with alts
*❀\(^ヮ^)/❀*
💖 INFP 💖 Trans 💖 Lesbian 💖
I'm a love live fanatic, anime lover, reluctant movie critic, cooking enthusiast, occasional kpop fan, and somewhat casual gamer.
occasionally confused, often frightened
http://chel.magentamonster.com
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