Hey, this is an updated version of my ask for help that was previously around. Some things have changed, and thanks to your help I've managed to kinda get things back in the right direction but I'm still struggling and could really use some help.

I was admitted to a medical ward of a hospital just a week before Xmas and my birthday. I admitted myself, voluntarily. Sadly it was the only place with beds, and its run FOR PROFIT. The facilities were like a nightmare, the other patients were not getting the help they needed. They weren't ensuring that the patients in most need were even taking their medication! If someone acted out, they literally locked them in the equivalent of solitary confinement until they shut up. They call it the "quiet room". They abused my patient rights, held me captive for over 72 hours despite me being a voluntary inpatient, and did everything they could to slow my recovery and keep me as long as they could. I forced my psychiatrist to give me what I needed, and sped up my own recovery in order to get out of there. As I was leaving, I got the contact info for 12 other patients offering to be witnesses in court if I ever have enough money for a class action lawsuit.

My disability leave was denied. This is because I wasn't able to find a psychiatrist, have an appointment, and get prescribed new meds in time. Meaning every day I've missed has been "un-approved". Meaning I'm probably going to get fired shortly if I'm not already.

I have an appointment for the 20th with a psychiatrist but I'm so scared about how far away that is. There's no way I can work without my meds.

Without my medications I've been spiraling downhill so fast. It feels like I was finally given agency over my life and now it's been stripped away again. I can't think, read, behave normally.. I have been hiding in my room for days trying just to stay sane despite my constant psychosis. I don't want to admit myself somewhere again, and I'm not currently suicidal.. but if I can't get enough money to eat and pay my bills and survive until I'm able to get new meds, I.. honestly don't know what I am going to do. I can't work, I can't do anything until I have my meds back and that's terrifying. American Healthcare not being free is really fucking me over, and if I'm fired I'll lose whatever healthcare I would have gotten from working.

All of my partners are in crisis of their own and cannot help me at all. Two of them might be homeless soon, one is dealing with abusive parents.. I want to be there and support all of them but right now all I can think and hear is blood and screams, my psychosis makes my waking hours a nightmare. I just want to wake up, please.

If you have the ability to help, please, I implore you to do so.. I know I may be a rather abrasive person but I'm much better on my meds. I need them to live under Capitalism. I appreciate any and all help I can get. If you can't afford to help me, please boost this post or link it to your friends,, even small donations can make a huge difference on whether or not I get to eat next week.

Thank you for reading, I know it's a bit of a long post. (Paypal preferred over ko-fi because ko-fi takes a cut whereas paypal doesn't)
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