FatMadiVersA @FatMadiVersA@computerfairi.es

@Jaddy danke für den tipp

So a couple of days ago I was looking into eBay Kleinanzeigen actually to look if there was any secondhand cheap piano we could put in the livingroom of our shared flat but I didn’t find that instead I came across a #celtic #harp wich was extremely cheap I thought this couldn’t be good so I sent a message and visited the woman next day to play live but it sounded wonderful so I got it and I’m very happy
Here’s an improv with my new harp https://soundcloud.com/fatmadiversa/heatrtspace-impro

This little comic I drew last night after some really nice experiences I had yesterday it cost me sleep but I’m quite happy
Wanted to share this on instagram but it cuts off parts of the image i don’t know why

@MrUrban@mastodon.social ja hatte ich noch von Halloween

Here are pictures of my new room not completely ready but fo now its good

I shockingly noticed that I probably have moths in my #fibres can you tell me what to do #knitting #followerpower

So after I wanted to move last Friday and then got sick I will move to my new place tomorrow and am really excited anf is hopefully all will go well
Its like too good to be true I always wanted to live in Berlin in a shared flat and until Now this was just temporary but after tomorrow I’m really gonna live and belong here
But I’m also anxious what if things don’t work out I don’t get the support and my roommates kick me out?
I really love everything there the area the forest not so far etc

@FatMadiVersA this is no New behaviour of me I have been having meltdowns and freaking out at him as long as we had our relationship but it has gotten better as I went to counselling because of that and now I’m falling back into old behaviours and the person I go to to counselling is not there until the 5th of February I don’t want of this I don’t intentionally want to hurt him but sometimes when things get too much it just happens and afterwards I feel so shit

So I’m moving to that shared flat this weekend and although I’m happy I’m more and more anxious and overwhelmed especially as some of the social workers weren’t reliable although I told them I need help with structuring etc so I had two big meltdowns on Friday and Saturday that my partner couldn’t take it anymore and said if this continues to happen in the new place he will leave me now on top of everything I’m afraid to loose him

I got a phone call yesterday evening that the people who I got to know through the party want me to move in with them
Finally after 9 month of searching for a flat share in #berlin after sooo many rejections and fails there are people who want me although I’m trans and disabled
I’m so happy and relieved but also anxious that I might get into new problems and not manage well to find the support network I need that something is goioing to go wrong again

@corimathildur ja absolut Positivität ist für mich auch wichtig, sonst würde ich den Kopf in den Sand stecken, bei der Scheiße die ich immer wieder erlebe gerade was Menschen angeht die es besser wissen wollen

@jules@wandering.shop those pictures are beautiful went out today too only to get stuff from the pharmacy and here it is pretty grey I wish we had some winter sunshine too