hhklfhasdl;fs;dlhhdsfhsdfsdfsdf pay is still messed up aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

on the upside i'm handling this way way better since i started sertraline. WAY better. This would have previously made me shut down and panic.

also missed an appointment because I thought it wa sa phonecall I was expecting, whoops.