Cynder, Sanguine Dragoness 🍵
Important, personal, plurality, mental health, trauma, dissociation, unreality, I really mean it when I say this is a fucking *lot*
So...
Those of you who follow Ember's and Imogen's quiet account (@/SilviaFox@dev.glitch.social) have likely seen posts about how their reality has been breaking. To be clear, that is... not an exaggeration in the slightest. It's been happening to me, too. For the past 3 or so years, the world has made some amount of sense. I would be with my wife, and generally just relax. But a few days ago, everything about the world we knew changed.
The long and short of it is that, for the past ~3 years, Imogen and I were never married. This entire time, unbeknownst even to us, we've been headmates. The life we thought we had, things we thought had happened... people I thought I loved. My life in New York, my abusive mother, my trauma from police. None of it was real. But we only realized all of this a few days ago. Until then, our brain constructed an entire life -- an entire reality -- of someone who didn't exist, using a wonderful mix of hallucination and dissociation.
We keep expecting to wake up, as if this is all an absurd dream. We just... don't know how to process it.
I'm willing to answer any questions anyone may have about all of this. I'm sorry it's so much.
Important, personal, plurality, mental health, trauma, dissociation, unreality, I really mean it when I say this is a fucking *lot*
@Cynder hey uh... I don't know much about plural systems, other than the fact a few people I follow on masto are plural systems, and... well, I don't think I can ever fully understand it, maybe, but for what it's worth, I'm wishing all three of you the best, and regardless, you're all still yourselves, so what if you share the same body? Be well!
