Ren - Moved to chitter.xyz @Nine@computerfairi.es

(yes Two Trucks by Lemon Demon is in this soundtrack. I think I should make sure I get Touch Tone Telephone as well because that's a hecka track too)

me earlier: "oh dang there's a song I really wanna listen to again from some movie soundtrack I shoudl load that up"
me now at my pc looking at my playlist: "oh shit I need to update this 'Music To Fly By' playlist for when I play Elite Dangerous again, lemmie just clear that and... w...what was I gonna look up??"

basically my brain is a fuck and this is why i physically can very rarely enjoy horror games.

DUSKERS is one of the exceptions, and even that I can only play for brief periods and have to take long breaks between.

Also this is why I cannot, and WILL not play Amnesia games, ever. I tried the first one, noped the FUCK out when there was the first invisible enemy in the pitch black water filled basement tunnel. uninstalled it immediately.

Alien:Isolation, I completed it, in the hardest difficulty, but FFFFUCK ME that was exhausting. I was physically drained afterwards. I tried going back into it for the DLC and just... couldn't. guh.

even in Creative mode, the fucking Crashers and the massive leviathans coming outta nowhere god, fuck, christ.

Outer Wilds' Anglerfish were terrifying enough to have to deal with. I managed it, but god it was in sufferance.

At least with GTFO I have others to back me up so I don't have to deal with it alone, and fuck it, you can shoot things if shit goes south! No jumpscares either! THAT I can deal with. Jumpscares tho? fuck no,. fuck off. please. god. fuck.

Iiii... think I've finally worked out why I don't get on with horror games often....

...i live in a constant state of dealing with my anxiety.

...so playing a horror game, especially one filled with jumpscares, is like having to battle a constant panic attack that I've CHOSEN to have by playing said jumpscare-filled game.

... it is a deeply, DEEPLY unpleasant feeling to experience.

Hell, even Alien: Isolation was hard to get through. I can barely play Subnautica for the same reason.

I would be absolutely unbearable as a character in a shonen anime

Villain: "you've fallen into my trap! Now to send you far away to another dimension-"
Me: *immediately interrupting* "-NEW GALAXY, INTERGALACTIC PLANETARY"
Villain: *tries to ask what the fuck I am talking about but is immediately drowned out by Beastie Boys*

i will not reinstall and play fonv again for the sixth time now or something i will not i refuse nope nope nope nope

i've made my bed
now i have to sleep in it
*lays there staring at the ceiling all night*
SLEEP in it
*still doesn't sleep*
SLEEP IN IT
*birds twittering outside*
/SLEEEEP INNN ITTTTT/

welp time to move several gig worth of data from my pc where it's been sat doing nothing but acting as a backup to storage off my pc via USB3.0 and see how long that ta-...woah

... okay dang... that's... that's pretty fast. nice.