Ren - Moved to chitter.xyz @Nine@computerfairi.es

every so often i thikn about that "harold they're lesbians" post.

Attempting to get some work done: I'm sleep
Attempting to sleep: REAL SHIT

Good god I relate just a little too well to Mae in nitw. That's a little worrying.

hm i have a hongry but there's nothing to eat. :| dangit. oh well. bed time.

also maebea is my otp

also

crimes

aaaaaaaa just finished night in the woods and oh my god i love it

it's

it's good
it's.

oh wow it hurt too. it was beautiful and sad and i cried at several points and it's just such a human story... and yet... so fuckin' weird at the end too and just... oh wow...

...oh wow.. I... I loved it. I might replay it!

and there's literally no reason for this. Ugh. hate this so much.

The worst thing is that these feelings are alllllll too familiar. I used to get night terrors a lot when I was a kid and I recognise this feeling, it's the same as after I wake up from one, that same disconnect, the anxiety, the deread, feeling of imminent danger from nowhere, like i'm "lagging" behind my own body when I move, everything feels faintly unreal and numb but even though I'm breathing calm I want to scream and cry and escape.

there's no reaosn for this, it will pass, it will be okay. i'll be fine... nothing bad is going ot happen I just... have to calm down somehow. somehow.

okay god fuck i wish this doctors appointment was sooner to be honest becuasei feel like on the verge of a panic attack constantly and it's not fun not fun at all nghh...don't like
doooo not like

holy shit selmer's poem in nitw fuckin ROCKS