Ren - Moved to chitter.xyz @Nine@computerfairi.es

I mean like this is a night terror I had, repeatedly, the same dream and same scenario, since when I was like, 6 years old and stuff. I had it way up until my teens, though I haven't had that nightmare in a while mercifully. I think I had one reoccurance when I was like... 20 something? Living with some friends. Night terrors are awful.

But yeah.

I just remember screaming, not just mine but hundreds of others, like the world itself was tearing itself apartand that this thing was the cause of it, and I was ... I dunno a sacrifice? the cause of it?? trying to stop it but failing?? It was never clear but I just remember this unending, rising dread, knowing it was coming but being unable to stop it or wake up.

The Black Goat and its cult in NITW is... eerily similar...

...shit I just realised something. I used to have night terrors a lot when I was a kid. One in particular I'm still unable to be free of the memory of, is one where deep underground there is some kind of eldrich monstrosity, a beating pulsating "heart" for want of a better word, worshipped by some kind of shadowy cult. I remember being forced to go to it, and being unable to turn away as I reach out to it against my own will.

so i uh... i'm signed off work for two weeks. while I get this anxiety / panic thing sorted out. yaaaay

...though it'll be early november before I actually have any appointments or anything :|

tfw you watch a GilvaSunner video without realising it and are like "ah this is a way better high quality rip of a video game music" then just as you link it you realise it's GilvaSunner and are like "OH GOD NO IT'S GONNA GET WEIRD... why isn't it weird already...??..." so you sit through the whole thing waiting for the WEIRD part.

only to relaise that it's SilvaGunner who does the weird mashups.

okay so for some reason ladybugs are out in force... aaaand are kinda... invading our house??

I'm not sure why, I know they're absolutely no harm at all and I love ladybugs, but why they're coming inside I have no idea.

unfortunately Sid is... well he's a hunter. Through and through. so he sees them and welp... he keeps trying to play with them. like he plays with anything not nailed down. or that's dangling. or that is in any way mobile. D: poor bugs.

ffffffffffffffff something in the house keeps banging like the wind is catching it and it's unnerving me fuck

manual boost to add cw:
walmart being creepy as fuck and spying on customers

https://mastodon.social/@torproject/100861312403782898

also here's a palate cleanser https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DogLwlVrng8

the tune I was talking about. so nice.

manual boost to add cw as this involves facebook being..

well...

completely Zucked. can we make that a thing? Zucked the hell up? also techbro culture.

https://eldritch.cafe/@enkiv2/100859821764380526

"Longest Night" from the Night in the Woods Preview soundtrack is just

such a nice tune.