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Usually the big stability in my life is my partner but even she's been really fragile and she's been pushing everyone away and suffering some sort of breakdown and I don't know how to help or if I even can. I just, want something I can hold onto.
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I'm happier than I've been in a long time because I have someone to talk to who understands me really well and who is really enjoyable to spend time with, and who I can easily have good conversations with... but at the same time I'm very worried that they're doing to go disappear again and I'm going to crash down again and it's making it harder to enjoy the time I've got.
There's a lot of fragility in my life and I tend to lose the things I like in it, and I don't know what to do about that.
Reflecting on whatever life choices led to the current situation where I'm making the decision that Billy Mays is probably no longer canon
Now realizing that my worldbuilding is actually very messy and is actually split between a "game" universe, "roleplay/personal" universe, and "high school fake UN" universe, and my wiki makes no effort to differentiate between any of this.
I guess I need to go through my wiki and clean everything up. I've kinda already started.
I think I'm gonna name my SNES mouse character "Maffi" (M from "mouse", fused with the first four letters of "affine transformation" which is what Mode 7 really is) if I still think it's good later and not just at 5 AM.
Worldbuilding some more, I think she'd be very good at digital art, because she could plug herself in and just have the exact shape or cursor movement she's thinking of get drawn, no going over a curve several times until it's right.
Sample assets for my NES microgame creator thing. It's a mixture of graphics I reused from games I released, games that never saw the light of day or made any real progress, and new stuff. You'll definitely be able to add your own graphics too, but maybe not immediately in the first build of this I make public, since that will have to get into dynamically loading graphics per-game.
I'm a pretty squirrel princess who dabbles in roleplay, game development, retro game consoles, pixel art, and a variety of computery things.
Feel free to contact me if you want to make friends! See my website for more contact details. [she/her]