So my mother died. Not unexpected, because she was in her 80s, but not expected because we haven't spoken for about 10 years. I feel like I'm balancing on a point, ready to fall off, but I don't know which way I'm going to fall. How do I feel about this? Truly, deeply, have absolutely no idea.
Alexithymia is real, right now.
That feeling in the air, just before a storm? Kind of a stillness, but with an energy that crackles, like lightning? That's what I'm feeling. And that's all I'm feeling right now.