Tarale @Tarale@computerfairi.es

I'm still depressed, but it's a lot better than it was a little over a year ago. And there are things going on that are stressing me as well, like my MIL, and some legal battles.

BUT being able to get out more and get some exercise has made a big difference.

To think of it, it's kind of a pity I didn't have the support I needed to get any exercise right at the start of my baby's life. Nobody else took on responsibility to give me a break of any kind.

I was in a very dark place right at the start, when I couldn't get any sleep, couldn't eat right, and could barely even get a moment to wash my hair or use the toilet, let alone go for a walk.

Over time, we've been able to get out more and more, as the baby's sleep and nursing has been more predictable. And my mood has lifted with it.

I kept up all my walking during the pregnancy, up until the last few weeks anyway… when moving AT ALL was too hard…

…and then, the baby was born, and with his arrival all my sleep, exercise, and diet stuff went out the window.

And oh boy did the depression ever come back.

I read "Spark" (the book mentioned in the video) a few years back… well… listened to it on Audible, while walking to work.

And it was really good. It also explained why I had so much improvement with my anxiety and depression while I walked to work every day. It didn't *fix* the problem, it just made things more manageable.

Just watched a YouTube video that reminded me how great exercise is and I wish I could find time to fit more in around the baby. https://youtu.be/DsVzKCk066g

w00t ketosis

Why am I, like, so good at having crazy, selfish, abusive, and paranoid people in my life?

I called the Legal Services Commission about the threat of Grandparents Rights and at this stage I am good, but it's worth me writing down everything crazy my MIL is doing.

If I go no contact, they will be able to initiate a process to gain access to my son.

I WANT to cut them out, but that's because they are so stressful when they do visit or interact with us in any way, but I haven't. Especially as that will just make their case for them for Grandparents Rights.

Apparently a few months back, when I did some sleep training for a couple of weeks, they decided we were "cutting them out". That's when they started turning up uninvited and shit. Now they have what they want—regular visitation—but she still wants us to know she can go for more.

So I found out yesterday that my Mother In Law made some vague threats about Grandparents Rights. Like, she wants us to know, that she knows, that she can try to take our baby away.

Today my mother in law phoned my husband to ask him not to tickle our son, because she's scared, and Attila the Hun died from laughter… 🙃

I turned my back for 2 seconds

So I've finished reading "The Complete Guide to Asperger's Syndrome" and I asked mum if she has any of my old report cards so I can look into that stuff. She asked why, so I told her that I may be autistic.

She paused for half a second to think and then said "yeah, probably".

She then went on to describe how I wouldn't play with the other kids in junior primary school and how she was worried about me.

Spamming up the ole web 1.0 forum, wheee

(https://jul.rustedlogic.net/)

Actually I wasn't done. But the edits I made tonight are EXTREMELY minor. I never finished up the lips or the eye properly yesterday. So, pinker lips with a more defined cupid's bow, and bluer eyes. Also more ear fur strands. https://computerfairi.es/media/Quj6krrtRUxXOpTFEOM

And I'm done. I've learned a trick or two over the years.

https://computerfairi.es/media/j7KdWn44W2y2gAS7c4M

More linework and colours done during the baby's morning nap.

https://computerfairi.es/media/0Vy-TdDCaruOjzHke6o

Last update before bed. Tidied up some lines, re-centered it, started work on the border. Time for rest.