Terxbor (also Formedras) | The Eternal Pariah @Terxbor@computerfairi.es
On rare occasion, a cat that looks like my emblem (avatar image) when curled up in a a ball.
Sometimes a Nobody.
Usually a bisexual human male, half-Filipino, half-white, with manic depression and a severe need for affection and validation. (Some of which I get here, yay!)
Lives in California (UTC-8 in winter, UTC-7 in summer)
I think I'm poly? Yeah, I'm poly.
Maybe gender fluid? Still figuring things out.
Joined Feb 2018
Depression, trauma, goodbye. (NOT sui)
At first, this place was nice.
But now I feel like I don't belong. Rejected, dumped, whatever. Like I was supposed to be some specific thing that I couldn't be.
This place has become one big trauma for me.
I've selected a few accounts to follow on @Formedras, but other than that...
You hurt me, and I'm leaving. Goodbye.
Depression, feeling unwelcome
The last few days here have been the worst throughout social media for me.
Last week, it was feeling so good, but everything has crashed down on me and I feel like I no longer have a place here.
I keep saying it's my fault, and it probably is, but I also feel like, to truly belong here, I have to be trans, and I'm not. Not really.
I'll probably close this account soon. I don't belong and it'll hurt way too much seeing everything that I'm unwelcome participating in.
mh, panic mode, profanity, DEPRESSION
@chao@chitter.xyz
I do feel a bit better thanks to you. *cuddle*
mh, panic mode, profanity, DEPRESSION
@chao@chitter.xyz
*hug*
Thanks.
mh, panic mode, profanity, DEPRESSION
@chao@chitter.xyz
I feel normal... Not necessarily a good thing.
I have nobody to blame but myself, which actually makes things a bit easier on me, believe it or not.
I just woke back up, so I guess the impact of things is a bit dulled...
mh, panic mode, profanity, DEPRESSION
@chao@chitter.xyz
*hug* Thanks.
mh, panic mode, profanity, DEPRESSION
I woke up early... And what I woke up to...
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
I knew, I just fucking KNEW everything was going to fall apart on me. Everything always does. Sometimes it's my fault, sometimes not.
But ALWAYS any time I start to feel like things are going well, they all go to shit. Why do I even bother trying to make things better for me?
mh, panic mode
If anyone is willing to provide statements of support, I'll read them once I wake up in the afternoon (so about 22:00 UTC) if I'm out of panic mode.
mh, panic mode
I'm really really deep into panic mode right now because I caused people to feel really uncomfortable...
I'm just going to stay off of this instance for the rest of the night because otherwise I'm likely to make things and my own feelings worse and end up going sui thoughts...
@turbodragon
Apparently a really really tough challenge; I looked up some things about it on Wikipedia.
This should go on my Ten Forward account...
Wow... there's more than just Ubuntu now for Windows Subsystem for Linux (native Linux on Windows).
There's SUSE Enterprise Server and openSUSE. And openSUSE supports graphical environments! (I'm guessing Wayland, not X Server.)
lewd
@LottieVixen@dev.glitch.social
Yeah, reading about it had an effect on me too.
Dysphoria
Is there any way I can get voice therapy through self help without paying for it
I literally can not be employed and I get paid $25 every 4 months and that's fucking it, from a single generous person (bless them)
I can't fucking take this anymore
Random thought, Phineas and Ferb, lyrics
S.I.M.P. Squirrels in my pants!
Squirrel! Squirrel!
...
Dang, that girl had an actual squirrel in her pants!
We just got served.
Lewd subtoot
@SilviaFox
*tries to help those girls be lewd... fails*
Affectionate @ you, kind of???
@SilviaFox
Cute...
*pets you more*
Star Trek TNG spoiler also lewd
@Jo @UberActivist@cybre.space
Well, he did make an android to look like his wife.
Affectionate @ you, kind of???
@SilviaFox
*cuddles and pets you*
@lighttrax
I love Dance Dance Revolution, but I wish the newest one (DDR A) had some Smile.dk in it.
On rare occasion, a cat that looks like my emblem (avatar image) when curled up in a a ball.
Sometimes a Nobody.
Usually a bisexual human male, half-Filipino, half-white, with manic depression and a severe need for affection and validation. (Some of which I get here, yay!)
Lives in California (UTC-8 in winter, UTC-7 in summer)
I think I'm poly? Yeah, I'm poly.
Maybe gender fluid? Still figuring things out.
Joined Feb 2018
