personality, gender
My aunt from Vegas is visiting for the next two weeks.
Last night, while everyone else had a considerable amount of drinks, a sober me was talking with my aunt about life, family and how I felt restrained from how I wanted to express myself.
I was hinting towards gender stuff but didn't explicitly say, and even a few months later I hesitate ever talking about it to family.
personality, gender
There's a point where the whole gender thing can't be hidden away forever, and I keep thinking of the consequences if I ever decided to reveal it.
It's a high chance they'd be okay with it, but there's a nonzero chance that this could damage things considerably if I even hint towards it.
Thus I hide it away and never speak of it to my family.
personality, gender
Late last year, I figured out that clearly I wasn't a cis male and probably lean more non-binary/femme.
I was hoping by now this would lead to me truly expressing who I am in person, but I still hesitate.
It's getting to a point where I'm having a hard time hiding it anymore, and it's frustrating.
I wish I could be myself.