dysmorphia
i feel so uncomfortable in my human skin. i just don't want to be this thing
dysmorphia, werewolf feelings
“Angela, a werewolf has to look like a human at least part of the time, right?” Yeah. That’s part of why the allure of lycanthropy is so strong to me. The secret. Masking as a survival trait. But my mask is stuck to me all day every day and right now I want it GONE
dysmorphia, werewolf feelings
There is something under that mask that is more real than most of what I do every day, and I’ve never seen it. It’s not angry or scared or vengeful. It looks and feels like a monster but it’s not malignant. It’s just trying to be seen.
dysmorphia, werewolf feelings
Every image I boost, every monster suit or costume part I post, is me trying to put together a picture of what I am. Trying to reconstitute the magazine from a ransom note made of cutout letters. There’s a face under this woman’s strange cheeks and big forehead and I want to KNOW IT
dysmorphia, werewolf feelings
This sounds insane. It sounds like a coping mechanism. But I’ve felt like this too strongly in too many ways for too long to just be telling myself an iconoclastic fantasy story for the sake of comfort. I’m real. I just want to be me.
re: dysmorphia, werewolf feelings
Bad brain weather is not a catastrophe because I have friends and family who believe what I say about myself, even if they don't understand. Though some DO understand, and I hope they feel less alone having read this.