74 @asahi@computerfairi.es

I'm very gay and I love my girlfriend

I'm gay

the entire thing is "i need to run away from my family and i literally cant survive being homeless because of my autism and circumstances also i have little legal doccumentaion in the first place"

I'm gay

cute things to call your girlfriend:
- honey
- moonlight
- lamp

I'm very gay

I need to relearn to be the carefree girl I was made not be

to have kindness and care is courage
cuteness is a defiant strength

I'm very gay

what do i even do

please help

cant e ven run away cant even escape

is hopeless is impossible
ill nver escape them
ill never escape them
il l never _______

control an d ill never ______

im scared and for good reason

this person takes as gospel doctors words even when they inentionally misdiagnosed me

i'm scared
"i'm autistic but undiagnosed" "i'm transgender with denied access" "i have highly disabling migraines but no medical proof" "i don't have studies and can't get out of my house because of undiagnosed mental illness" "i can't be with my family or with people"
what is any of thhat even getting at

"i cant be with my family" is
the scariest words i want to say
because if they dont understand what i mean everything will be awful

i'm scared i don't even know what am i going to say
im forcibly going there

people usually don't even go there being forced to

it's going to go really badly
i dont want to go

and evne if it wasn't bad its a step on a too big of a turning point
and they don't get it