Aura 🏳️‍⚧️ @aura@computerfairi.es

Coming out to just one friend had the opposite affect to what I expected, even though he was super supportive. Normally (or at least, historically) my resting heart rate has been closer to 50bpm.

I find myself, once again, stuck in bed catastrophizing.

@cwebber mmm delicious entropy

Oh fuck. What? Why are you looking at me like that!?

@cwebber I found the Easter egg!

@mavica_again imagining the sick stunts he could pull with that crowbar.

I think this makes us friends now though.

This asshole flew at me once to see if I'd flinch. I did not (because I am gormless but it didn’t know that) and it had to veer off.

I should post about something else. Here’s another corvid. This time a rook that lives near me.

This was easy mode though. I was already pretty sure he’d do well. Family is going to be very challenging.

My poor friend had no idea what I was going to say. Goodness knows what went through his mind while I was struggling to get it out! When I did though, he aced it. Top marks. No notes.

I mean, it was a hell of a rush too! I was visibly shaking for ages afterwards. It felt like being a teenager and confessing my love to someone and finding out they’re into me too, but x1000000.

Looking back on this after a couple of days. I wonder what I looked like as I said it. I spent at least a minute wrestling with my own head and failing to say it before I could get it out *after* I had made the decision to do it. I guess that’s just what it was like for me to overcome decades of firewalling. I also wonder what it’ll be like the next time.

@mcc @cwebber I’m just 17 rubber ducks in a trench coat.

@kai Unfortunately I don't drive, but I still love these because they look like the RC cars of my youth.