nsfw
I've got a vibrating buttplug coming in the mail (hopefully later this week), and I'm honestly trying to decide whether I want to fucking wait for it to get here or just please myself now. Like, I kinda like the idea of having to obediently wait for it like a good girl (and, also, waiting might just make it that much better), but, like, gods, I'm fucking horny, and I don't particularly care for chastity or orgasm denial.
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Okay, so possibly better orgasm later or relief now? Hmm...
Re: nsfw, mild screaming
Wait, no. That's not a fucking choice. You don't just choose to struggle with a decision. Not that I'm aware of anyways. I suppose you could choose to struggle with it over, like, flipping a coin, but that's not really particularly "making a decision", is it? I dunno. I'm just gonna, fuckin', die, I guess. Is that an option?
I hope not. I at least need to finish transitioning before I die. I may be dead, but that ain't an excuse to use my deadname!
nsfw, mild screaming
Honestly, like, I could make a choice one way or the other, or I could just, like, struggle with this decision for so long that it kinda just makes itself for me as I struggle to decide whether I should for so long my buttplug gets here before I decide. But, then, that's another choice I'd have to make, isn't it?
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA