So, I've been reminded I might have BPD. Thankfully not violently so. Haven't had another episode of anything, but I do have a 2 page list of "Oh, yeah. All of this shit that I never talked with anyone about and assumed was fine now." Though, as it turns out, I might not be fine, much as I told my therapist and psychiatrist I was. Am I fine, or am I dissociating as usual and assuming that I'm fine afterwards? That I don't yet have a satisfactory answer to. Ugh. Mental health is hard.