Aura V. @auravulpes@computerfairi.es

And before anyone says anything. I know, I know. Only use stuff with a flared base in your bum. I was young, stupid, and trying to get myself off while I was in the shower before mom could find out, okay? It was there, it had a motor, and I wanted to try it. That was years ago, and it's behind me.

So, uh, I have my vibrating buttplug now and, honestly, I'm kinda scared to try it. Sizewise, it's not too bad. Certainly smaller than the shaft on the smaller of my two dildos, and I can take that no problem, so, it should be fine in that regard. I'm just worried about what's gonna happen when I click the little button on bottom. It's pretty strong (certainly stronger than the toothbrushes I've tried using in the past). That's gonna be...an experience, to say the least.

So, you may remember I was struggling to decide whether to masturbate the other day because, well, vibrator in the mail. Well, last night, I decided "Fuck it" and had a quick session.

Guess who's vibrator is out for delivery today?

Yep. Figures the day after I decide to do that it'd get here.

(Well, presumably it'll get here. I hope it does.)

Maybe this is why I became so depressed last semester: I was studying thermodynamics and statistical mechanics.

Alright, last one. This was drawn a while back and...well...I may or may not have a thing for sexy girls boxing, and this may or may not have stemmed from that. Here we have Sylvanas, ready to take all comers. The way it's drawn, it's seems you've taken up the challenge, doesn't it? Most of Sylanas was ref'd off a Curse avatar, though I had to figure out the gloves and ring myself. It definitely shows. Anyways, there's a little tour of art I've never shared. Hope you enjoyed.

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Two more, then I'll stop spamming my art onto your timeline. Here's a dark elf I drew a while back. This is honestly the (second) most shading I've ever done in an image. I used it as an avi for a while on "Aeris, Dark Elf Rogue/Queen" accounts, but that phase is gone (mostly), and, with it, use of this avi.

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Here's another of the early images of Aura, after xe became blue, but while I was still figuring out whether I was male or female. Here, Aura's male. And, he's in a bit of a rough spot, ain't he? This image was supposed to be a metaphor about my mental health, and it came out okay. It's also the origin of Aura's missing ear and ear notch, so, if you ever wondered about that, now you know.

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Alright, back to artwork. Here's one of the earliest images of Aura, back before I started going by Aura and when she was still an enderfox. Yes, an enderfox. An enderman, but it's a fox. That's me.

(Yes, I'm aware I fucked up the trans flag. )

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Okay, now this one I *might* regret if it weren't so fucking funny at the time. Say hello to DITTO THANOS.

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Meme time!

Yeah, don't question it. Just go with it.

Honestly, I don't regret this.

By the way, what exactly is the flag on the latter half of pride? At the time, it came up as the bigender pride flag, but apparently it's an intersex pride flag? Anyone know what the deal is with it?

Anyways! Here's another thing I never really shared. I wanted to get this made into a t-shirt way back when I first started at UTA. I still kinda do, though I'd definitely change it to just a single flag (probably the trans flag). Would UTA have been happy about me making this shirt? Probably not, for trademark reasons (they're pretty good on LGBT stuffs). But, hey. It's a good shirt.

It was just...That writing was something I included in a message to my therapist about my self-harm. It managed to so perfectly cover some of what I felt when I did it that I just couldn't *not* include it. It was, like, me speaking through Wynter speaking through me, in a way. And, yet, it was Wynter's own thoughts (as much as they could be, anyways). It just...I dunno. My relationship to my characters is weird.

Honestly, the moment she kinda became her own character and the moment that most reflects my own inner thoughts without being my thoughts was a writing wherein she explains why she liked to fight. In it, she explains that it helped her deal with depression, taking her out of her own mind, and dissociation, keeping her in her own body. And, it just...it was weird. It's words I technically wrote, but it felt like someone else was speaking my thoughts.

Like, seriously, compared to early writings of her, it's ridiculous how she's changed. I mean, the earliest writing I have with her is her musing on how great her girlfriend (who was, at the time, very much a self-insert) is. Since, she's kinda just grown out into a fully-fledged character that, like, is relatable for me, but isn't me.

Incidentally, Wynter's become the character of mine I most deeply relate to, which is interesting, as both her girlfriend, (the as-of-yet unintroduced) Ryver, and Fenris both started as fursonas for me and kept a lot of me in becoming just characters. Honestly, like, the fact that the one OC that wasn't a fursona has become a slight (*slight*) self-insert is just...weird, I guess?

In more images I've had lying around practically finished that I never actually properly finished, a picture of Wynter, my MMA fighter/physics student wolf. This was supposed to just a casual image of her on the weekends or whatever, though she's still got some fresh wounds from her last fight.

Also, I kinda want that shirt. I need to go properly make that shirt so I can have one. I quite like it.

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Seriously, I started drawing this in senior year of high school. It was literally just sitting around because I wanted to try drawing shadows on it and couldn't.

So, I've had this image lying around, unfinished, for ages (seriously, for, like, 3 years now) and I figure it's finally time to just call it done as is and put an end to its status as a work in progress. This was a little drawing I thought to put together from the silly idea of "sELFie", and, thus, an elf taking a selfie. Enjoy.

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