Χίμαιρα corvids @autistikai@computerfairi.es

ok so in concept the whole idea of like. easy symbols or whatever to indicate current emotional state / ability to talking / &c. is really great? but uh, it doesn't really work in a medium like this one. it really only works when there's some kind of constant or immediately available reminder of what everything means

like, i'd love to be able to signal that stuff on here, and i'm gonna boost it whenever i see it bc it's a great idea. but it's absolutely hostile to my comprehension in this state

so im supposed to be analysing this article but i keep getting pissed off at the capitalisms in it and also getting distracted by adhd hellbrain so basically ive spent eight hours writing half a sentence

'a fetching tuxedo and miniskirt combo'

wow i wish i had the kind of confidence to attempt a look like that. it's not really quite a Me look but like. i want the confidence

what level of intellectual dishonesty does it take to list examples of non-capitalistic ways of living in the middle of your assertion that it's impossible to create a non-capitalist society. who tf

how do you even engage intellectually with someone whose core premise is based on a refusal to engage intellectually with their subject matter

this is what i'm doing currently and i Hate it So Much. there's So Much wilful ignorance i have to wade through just to be able to say 'so yeah this person is full of shit'

actually activism stuffs in general i'm also working on some gender & disability things

apparently today's gender is listening to queen and being vehemently anticapitalist

my hair appears to be rotated

every time i say something positive about myself it's coming from a place of insurmountable deep-seated self-loathing. and you know what? i am fucking PROUD of that. it took me DECADES to get so far that i could even IMAGINE saying anything positive about myself. so FUCK YOU low self esteem

video contains homestar runner & tmbg. no context needed

https://invidio.us/watch?v=ZUgMpG1I_o8

it's fun having the kind of friends where completely out of the blue someone will spout a full on like essay rant of how a particular musical is hella queer

my two main problems are hair (which i can't fix) and hair (which i can't fix)