OK, here goes...
Something deeply personal I think I've never posted anywhere before. Please read it kindly.
As long as I can remember, I simultaneously wished I was female and found what is called "female" the most attractive.
No idea if the first part may come from my mother being angry with me until death bed for being born male,
but I know when kids started the whole "haha, you like girls!" and "girls rule!", I just went "yes..?" and "yes!".
I just don't feel strongly enough to actually strive for anything like gender-correction.
I once found there was a word for that, but I forgot.
Doesn't mean I'm hetero- nor homosexual, but I suppose labeled as bisexual in that area,
but hrmm, mainly towards females that don't give a shit about what they're seen as, just... are.
I'm sure I've phrased something in a way that may offend someone, but... I tried and, that's me.
Yes, strictly speaking I suppose that post was my first "coming out" or whatever,
although I feel I don't really have the right to use that phrase about myself since I have not and don't expect any major problems in because of it,
compared to... well, you know.
@b9AcE Never put yourself down like that. Just because you've never directly experienced it isn't a burden to you. The very fact that your identity was erased and trivialized by your own family members, making you hesistant to proudly display your identity in public spaces is more than enough reason to call it "coming out"
@danishcookies Thank you very much for your response!
Eben when not experiencing the worst personally, it's a stigmatized thing...
Thank you!
@danishcookies Indeed. "Queer" is s the word I would call myself.
Thanks!
@b9AcE A lot us question our identities during our upbringing. It's a very common queer experiences. Best thing to do is to share them and find people who you can build the community with. And stay away from any form of gatekeeping
@danishcookies I think a reason why I feel I e.g. "have no right to the phrase 'coming out'" is because of living in a community of friends that have experienced so very much worse than I would ever expect for doing so.
Among my friends I mostly feel like "eh, why bother mentioning it, it's natural" (which is as it should be) but that's not the rest of the world... yet.
@b9AcE Don't ever apply these concepts of oppression Olympics on either yourself or other people. It's neither good for you nor the others. The community is meant to be inclusive and shelter others and expand, making us the new norm, not some sort of exclusive club only for the "most oppressed."
@danishcookies Absolutely true!
I often tell others similar things, but you know... it's difficult sometimes to listen to your own advice if it's about yourself.
@b9AcE Well it's never too late to learn self-care ;)
@danishcookies I will tell myself that again as soon as I meet me. ;-)
@b9AcE your experience is always valid