social life ~
@fyrin Like I really do give off the impression of being super lonely and thats not necessarily inaccurate but that's not through lack of friends, I am just capable of being lonely even while o am spending every day with people
social life ~+
Have been super busy recently have seen four friends around York separately over the last couple days and it's been really good but also exhausting
It turns out that when you are constantly desperate for friends and constantly go around looking for them you end up with quite a lot of them but I'm still constantly desperate for moooooore
social anxiety vent --
Sometimes I just get super paranoid about everyone around me for absolutely no reason, and every single thing they do is analysed to death for any potential interpretation that could imply that they hate me but just aren't saying so for whatever reason.
I spend so much time socialising, both online and irl, and sometimes it just absolutely exhausting spending hours and hours constantly on the edge, desperate for validation, for a clear and unambiguous message of "friend"
Queer kinky poly 21yo confused nonbinary leftist depressed compsci apocalypse of a professional label-collector, uses they/them, allegedly banned from utilising the following articles: uWu, oWo
Boosting always okay unless specified, I need internet points or I starve
Also my brain is a bit of a stormy place and sadposting will appear at times