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I started out my transition trying to be a very “Normal” Adult Binary Woman Professional Mom Type, and i tried embracing the fact that my childhood got kinda blown up by various things by just going “well I’m gonna skip over any hope of an adolescence as my gender and just try to be a Mom”.
I’m really glad i stopped doing that. I’m actually a really queer, genderless, weirdbrain’ed pastel possum computer who likes video games and stuffed animals and Pokémon and that’s OK.
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My first endo was skeptical of me being nonbinary... i was going into a high pressure professional job... i had a partner that i was put in the position of being a caretaker for.... it felt like the right thing to do at the time.
But things have changed since then, and I’ve spent the past year REALLY focused on myself, what i want, and who i am.... i don’t have to pretend to be normal for other people, and i don’t have to take responsibility for everybody.
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@poss_bot holy heck 
that's a lot to deal with while figuring yourself out.
and it's interesting that you came to the genderless and neuroatypical places after the transness! it was flipped for me, where i realized there was Somethign Going On as a teenager (brainstuff, ***** stuff, a/sexuality weirdness) but i had a bunch of emotional cruft to work thru, then i got to have a fun couple of moments with gender.
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@poss_bot aaaaaagh. agh. A+ #1 top fear about dealing with medical folks. >.<
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@heytanuki so... it’s more like, i started out thinking, “I’m probably nonbinary” when i was first realizing i was trans, but then my first endo (and other factors at the time, including like, transitioning on the job and feeling like i had to be Comprehensible to people i only sorta knew) sort of caused me to start aiming for a very binary sort of thing that ultimately just didn’t really work for me.