I really don't, my family having a Holiday we started to have them, but I don't want to pretend and play as male for such a extended time --- one week... I really don't want to be there... I don't want to deal with misgendering, deadnaming and more. I don't want to be in this situation... I can't handle this...

And yet it is being forced on me by assumption by expectation --- like I can't dress as I wish --- I have to keep my HRT Undercover and just pretend... I am sick of acting and just want freedom from this...

I don't want to go on this Holiday because I can't be myself --- I am not allowed to be myself... and my mental health will suffer all to keep peace...

FUCK THAT!