kink, tf/plush/doll/drone-ification, personal //
here's kinda where I am right now
I semi-regularly get to go to a friend's place & mostly just be a stuffed animal for them to cuddle. This is nice.
I've 2x listened to a hypno file to dollify you as a christmas present. Since christmas isn't until winter, you're released to your life (w/ a doll trigger) until the big day. Today the 2nd half of the file dropped, when the present is opened. I'm planning to listen to that part next. This is hot.
re: kink, tf/plush/doll/drone-ification, personal //
I've also just read a transcript for a "install dronespace" type file, & while I doubt it's induction will work with me, & uncertain about an hour of repeating mantras (it's just not a thing I've done much)… I've played w/ ppl who do have dronespaces installed & when that shit works it works.
I'm not especially into drone stuff… but if I was my serial number would be 10355. Yknow, that kind of thing.
re2: kink, toy*ification, personal //
I'm also about to embark on a weeklong vacation I'm pretty sure will involve at least a half-dozen different hypnokinksters. I already agreed to a default dynamic of "I am a plush that belongs to you" with one as a baseline to work from. So who knows where that will end up.
Also, I'm trying to restart the self-pluralization project. This is 100% something I can do, at least if I can get myself to record files for us / us to record files for me.
re3: kink, headfuckery, personal //
…I should probably ask the dragon whose hoard I'll be in for a week(?) if they'll go out with me, now that I think about it.
Writing it out like this, I think it would be nice to have a little pocket space of pure hypnotized submission, but not *quite* any of doll/plush/drone. maybe a 3:6:1 ratio of those. Especially if a major part of my continuity became that pocket & we built someone better suited to interacting with the world to handle that.
re4: kink, headfuckery, personal //
that last bit is definitely getting ahead of us though, I should have the first construct sapient & a solid routine of meditation & self-hypnosis / inner work before contemplating anything like that.
…but building some kind of pocket drone/doll/plush whatever space should be good practice for the serious stuff right? and also fun, if ppl took advantage of it. & we should be able to reconfigure a toy space into something else if we outgrow it.
re5: plurality //
many people, repeatedly: you're _sure_ you're not plural?
me: I mean, I can recognize some tendencies in me that might have lead to that had I a more traumatic childhood, but I feel like if I was someone would have gotten in contact by now.
also me: just saying if there was a huge anxiety kraken living in my depths protecting me from burnout by blocking me from expending effort, *especially* on things that might work, it'd explain a lot. & it'd be a giant octopus, not a squid.
re5: plurality //
@lioness FWIW we didn't discover plurality by someone "getting in contact" because we were already chatting constantly (with learning hypnosis thankfully cutting down on the chatter) and just didn't know how to tell ourselves apart. So, you know, it can be subtle. -Menderbot
re5: plurality //
@lioness Having a specific idea of what a particular headmate might look like if they existed sounds likely plural to me. It could mean you're picking up a desire from a spark (ask Joanna in my discord about sparks & shells sometime if you want to hear an interesting theory) that isn't yet able to express that desire overtly. At this point we just run with that kind of thing when it happens.
re5: plurality //
@madewokherd my sense was that it represented something primordial, or was just something I thought would be neat to have in the ocean.
I was setting up a room in headspace that was a flat, underground ocean w/ submerged (water cooled) server towers representing unconscious processing that could be hauled up out of the water for maintenance.
I was explicitly in "build funcrional symbolism for the subconscious mode"; I don't remember what thought specifically prompted it tho.
re5: plurality //
@madewokherd I'm not… sure? It seems like something I must have done at some point in this whole thing but might be worth double checking
re5: plurality //
@lioness Out of curiosity (don't do it now if you can't afford a loss of function in the short term), have you ever made it explicit internally that you want others to get it contact? Like, you know whether you do or not but have you ever actually said it to yourself? -Menderbot