was feeling unsure if I've ever actually felt lonely so I googled for what it felt like and... yeah I relate to non of that.
most of the descriptions are either "It's like pain/sickness/sadness" which I understand but never felt from being distant from people, seems weird that one triggers the other tbh. I know my experience isn't common but that sounds like your moods are broken?
the other descriptions are all "Imagine <situation that would make you feel super isolated despite there being people around>" and every one I'm like "That sounds good tho actually?"
Anyway I've been plural my whole life so forget lonely - I've never even been alone. There's always someone either present or just like, in the next room over.
Imagining what it would be like to be different is really difficult tbh. Like yeah my idea of a "self" is socially imposed and internalised etc etc but my experience is still my/our own.
