cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
Having the weird thought that a lot of things I perceive as experiences are actually things I'm doing and I have the option to stop. I just tend to get caught up in them and forget that.
cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
This is seriously OP. If I take the time and do it calmly, I can gently shift from executive dysfunction to actually doing things, seemingly without any long-term consequence.
cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
This implies that executive dysfunction is a trance, and it is possible to find it and adjust it. At least for me. I don't know if the cause is the same for everyone, and it took a lot of work to learn how to do that.
cognitohazard? cognitoopportunity?
Addendum: for me it can also be different forms of tiredness. Or the "brain residue" that making decisions seems to leave. And those require rest of a sort, but the rest can be made more efficient by directing it to the specific condition. Which isn't always equally easy and may take more time.
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There's this feeling of mental "fog" that I haven't been experiencing lately, and I attribute that to working on this and keeping up with it.
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@madewokherd ooh this sounds/feels like a path-to-enlightenment step!
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@emerald It does, doesn't it. Certainly things are changing here and we'll see how it goes.
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@madewokherd 
congrats, I know that's a lot of work & glad it paid off for yall 💙
I don't know if I'd say "trance" for myself, but there definitely (probably?) is a distinct mode of hypo-activity where everything is impossible, which I can rarely push through to a more active version where stuff is sort of possible but utterly exhausting after, like, 2h tops.
I feel that there has to have been a mode at some point where I could do things and then do different things when done w/o that being more tiring than inherent to the activity? maybe not, I've (maybe?) always had trouble changing activities as a kid
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@emerald I've been finding that some rest is required to transition between things or into activity, it's just possible to do that very quickly if you focus it where it's needed
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@madewokherd yeah, I think a lot of my problem is that I correctly identify that I need to rest, but then either do something light that isn't rest but sucks me in (e. g. social media) or rest for way too long and then fail to make a purposeful(?) choice when starting fresh from that restful context
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@emerald that is very relatable
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TwinRoot (basically, who we were for 2 days when the entire system merged and became a singlet) was brought out by our attempt to practice this. Yesterday they hosted, but they've decided to just be a steadying hand for the rest of us. Apparently they enjoy being other people more than themself?