you know the thing with studying computer science ~as a joke~ is that… i actually want to do it not-as-a-joke, but i don't have the energy for university at all, that's why i gave up on linguistics, and i don't have the energy to learn things that are hard for me, like maths, and so i'm kind of stuck in this weird "i'm finishing this intro to programming class but then i'll probably give up" space that makes everything feel very useless and that takes the joy out of things pretty fast.
@Sasha thank you for your advice, but in my experience, giving up is usually not an active decision for me, it just happens. i have tried other ways, which usually ended in me simply forgetting that i was trying to learn something after a few days, and remembering months later :D and i am not primarily studying this as a way to learn programming, actually, even though that might sound weird.
