currently on cybre.space @maunzikation@computerfairi.es

still sad but feeling more good smol catte

I was cat-rated 10/10 (with the possibility of maybe 11/10) and I am drinking this "strawberry cocoa" thing that is basically a heap of sugar with some strawberry flavour ❤

and this is like the 3rd time this exact thing is happening? because I keep gaining weight and needing larger binders but I never remember to ACTUALLY BUY A WHOLE SIZE LARGER THAN SUGGESTED

it gives me terrible feelings about everything and i'm already feeling terrible today

i never know how tight is too tight and this might be fine but also maybe not? and just because it doesn't actually hurt my body doesn't mean that i should wear it if it still feels bad

srsly i kind of hate myself right now but also I dont have the patience for returning it or the money to buy another one

Getting a new binder, always
2 Weeks of shipping
30 seconds of excitement
1 long moment of "this is not MUCH larger than my old one, hope I don't damage it trying to get it on"
20 minutes of "feels… unbearably tight but that has to be expected. Still, I should have ordered the larger size EVEN THOUGH I'M RIGHT AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS SIZE, MEASUREMENT-WISE"
2 minutes of "yes exchanging it would mean really high postage and waiting like a month but maybe I should… naaaah"
a lifetime of regret

It's STILL snowing and I have accepted this and I actually LOVE snow and would love to go for a walk or something, but I'm also very very tired and don't want to… do things

I'm not really the downloading kind of cat because I can never keep track of which episodes I've watched, I totally rely on visited links changing color on streaming sites lol

I paused my Avatar rewatch when kisscartoon went down, thinking it would be up again in a few days, but it still isn't. So today I watched one episode in another place. My life is very exciting.

update: it's snowing more and starting not to melt on cars, i am confused