currently on cybre.space @maunzikation@computerfairi.es

we're clearly not far enough into cyberpunk dystopia

Yes it is true that I want to look more masculine but also… masculine as in "cat boys in pastel hoodies that have extra space for their ears" and I'm not sure where or how to get that kind of ears

on birbsite I started calling it blutapokalypse which translates to blood apocalypse and i think that's beautiful

anyway, the blood apocalypse is near and i don't know if my extreme lack of energy is more because of that or more because last week or more because the usual depression stuff

i would very much like to be able to do things other than being melodramatic some time soon 🐈

Posting Mastodon stuff on birbsite but not sure if ready for more people here

I'm not even following @catbot, but sometimes I see it in federated and I can't remember not boosting it whenever that happens ^^;

still sad but feeling more good smol catte

I was cat-rated 10/10 (with the possibility of maybe 11/10) and I am drinking this "strawberry cocoa" thing that is basically a heap of sugar with some strawberry flavour ❤

and this is like the 3rd time this exact thing is happening? because I keep gaining weight and needing larger binders but I never remember to ACTUALLY BUY A WHOLE SIZE LARGER THAN SUGGESTED

it gives me terrible feelings about everything and i'm already feeling terrible today

i never know how tight is too tight and this might be fine but also maybe not? and just because it doesn't actually hurt my body doesn't mean that i should wear it if it still feels bad

srsly i kind of hate myself right now but also I dont have the patience for returning it or the money to buy another one

Getting a new binder, always
2 Weeks of shipping
30 seconds of excitement
1 long moment of "this is not MUCH larger than my old one, hope I don't damage it trying to get it on"
20 minutes of "feels… unbearably tight but that has to be expected. Still, I should have ordered the larger size EVEN THOUGH I'M RIGHT AT THE BEGINNING OF THIS SIZE, MEASUREMENT-WISE"
2 minutes of "yes exchanging it would mean really high postage and waiting like a month but maybe I should… naaaah"
a lifetime of regret