i look rather femme. i don't act very femme at all. sometimes i wish i did, and don't really know how. maybe it was repressed, maybe i'll never act more femme. i've called myself futchy and found some comfort in that, but maybe it's more like a rest stop rather than a home
the reason part of my brain understand gender norms are absolutely bullshit
the emotional part of my brain says i am a trans woman and therefore i need to work harder to be a woman as dictated by bullshit norms
obviously, i would never impose that on anyone else