thinking about how funny it is that nazis, pedophiles and zoophiles are welcomed with open arms in the furry community but i once tried to join a public furry discord and got immediately banned because "someone recognized me and was uncomfortable with me" (no further explanation)
i don't have communities. i'm not allowed in communities. i try to start my own and nobody cares about them. i am so tired of being alone in the internet. i hate everybody
i lost 5 followers yesterday for god knows what reason. fucking block me already fuck it. i have so many people i don't even know who i never even talked to who have me blocked, and they're all friends of mutuals on twitter. never try to tell me i'm not a public enemy
please keep all of that in mind next time i feel like killing myself. this is a huge motivator for it. you did this
the only time i ever get any sort of recognition is when someone bigger than me cares enough to promote me in some fashion (incl socially) and even then i'm usually not even directly addressed because ew who would want to talk to filthy old me
i can't restart my life and i can't seem to redeem myself. i don't fucking know what i'm supposed to do but end it
