i have written a post. it's long, entirely personal, and it makes me feel very vulnerable.
on socialization, social media and emotional maturity, or: how i learned to stop worrying and become the change i wanted to see in the world
@esm i'm really glad it's resonating with more people, thank you for reading it
not sure what kind of online place i'm in that i could call a "home". maybe my group chat of 3 (active) friends? it's the only place i felt like i could reliably start and take part in conversations. only recently is there barely enough converation between other people for it to feel like a place and not just me messaging whoever looks at it
@eblu i'm glad it strikes a chord with people other than me, that helps me feel less like i'm isolated in my thinking
@eblu (and, lesbiaboard is right there, just saying ^^)
@eblu it's what happens when you use php software from 2005
Are only trans lesbians allowed?
No! The creators of this board are transbians and wanted to make a space for more people like them, but we welcome any likeminded people who would like to join <3
lesbiaboard started in 2018 with a much more pointedly "target audience" and now it's more like "shit man i just want people to vibe with"
@mavica_again you have always been good at crystallizing and presenting a coherent view of "this is what it's like to be me", for all the different values of "me". this post feels like many voices speaking as one about an internal tension that drives you. it's both deeply personal and extremely relatable. thank you for writing it.
@Angela your feedback and encouragement allowed me to 💜
@mavica_again Sorry to pop in unannounced, I just wanted to say I accept you.
i feel like people don't take it seriously enough when i say that my life is online and think i'm just being cute
the internet was never a tool or a distraction for me
the internet is my home and my home is being taken over and destroyed
that is perhaps another blog post i should write