reflecting on this, this goes beyond just retrocomputing as a hobby. some of these people i've known for over a decade and have had to cut ties with because of AI deepthroating unveiling red flags i should've seen years ago. a huge chunk of my social life (whatever left is of it after years of sexual harassment and DARVO targeted at me) is just gone. i am so tired
computers are deeply, intimately personal to me, and i feel fucking desolate right now
my zine grows more and more true by the day. i will only ever be friends with computers
meeting "computer people" as someone whose only friend for their youngest formative years was the computer, was the mistake. if the computer is the only friend you have you cannot trust other people who said the computer is the only friend they had too. they're the enemy