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Feeling better now but that's mainly due to time passing.
I felt sadge because it's becoming more common as I get older that birthdays are pretty much no different to normal days; nothing nice or special. The birthday messages are super appreciated but it's a bit "oh" when that's all you get.
The compounding sadge/guilt was a big pile of "that's pretty selfish" aimed squarely at myself.
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@renbymon *hugs tight*
Don't beat yourself up about it; it's not selfish to want something special to happen to you for just one day, on what's supposed to be YOUR day.