(cross posted from my bsky)
I love DJing but wow I second guess everything about myself and my ability. Thinking about submitting a demo for an event and when looking at the requirements part of my brain is like "is that a thing I can even do?"
I'm entirely self-taught and I don't really have anyone nearby that I can learn from or bounce ideas off, so it can feel that I'm not learning or getting better, other than minimising my mistakes. (1/2)
My mixes may be clean but are they exciting/interesting to people listening? My brain is wired differently enough that I don't understand how a lot of people react to things, so I do have to just guess and that's not easy for me to put into something I feel proud of.
The few times I've really made the club heave has been when playing what I consider to be bangers, so maybe I do have an understanding of what people like? Hello lack of confidence 🙃 (2/2)