Love being a werewolf so very much!! awwwoooooooo!!! 💜🐺🌕

Having spoken to some other women it looks like I experienced postpartum-like depression, which for me was a paranoid episode on Monday night. This was brought about by me rationing my HRT to make it last until I can afford some more. Bad idea in hindsight so back to my normal dose and working out how to get more HRT sooner.

Good news at least today is that I'm down to 116.8kg. The walk at the weekend really did me good apparently; I should try and make it weekly thing.

Mental note: build up a backlog of HRT so that you don't end up rationing and then having a depressive episode like the last 24 hours

I laid down in bed two hours ago and I can't sleep because I'm just crying again

I really want to go to a camping thing with a load of furries in a wood or field and just sit around a campfire for a few days and mask-off. I feel like I haven't been able to be myself for so long that I almost had a breakdown at work too.

I want to enjoy nature with like minded people but I don't know where to start or how to do it. I wanna be myself with my friends and not have to work or hide my true self.

Earlier this evening I had a proper breakdown in the kitchen while washing up; had a realisation that 90% of the stuff I did with friends over the last 12 months has been something related to doing a job and that absolutely wrecked me for about 30 minutes.
Not to say that the jobs weren't fun but there's been so little just hanging and being with friends, especially as doing a job means being professional and I haven't really had a proper chance to just be myself because of it

Yearning to get out into some sort of wilderness for a few days with furry friends so I can just mask off and be myself for a couple of days