family --
She only started being "nice" when I moved out and she realized I could cut her off. I wouldn't have had to do this if she hadn't abused me for years so she reaps what she sows I guess. I think she's been trashing me to the rest of the family too and it's frustrating. They always take her side and no one ever listens to me. Oh well, at least my friend found family is better, but I just needed to vent.
family --
I've been on very minimal speaking terms with abusive parents and I wish they would just outright say they're mad at me instead of being passive aggressive. It's my brother's birthday today and biomother is absolutely gushing about him on Facebook when all I got from her on mine was "we hope you had a good birthday" in a DM. It's just irritating that they pretend to do the bare minimum of "nice" to try and manipulate me and I wish they'd just be outright mean.
@pink_ink
It's so cute!!! There's a lot in the direct and the trailer, I'm very excited :D
Today my life force has been restored, my crops have been watered, and the food supply is flourishing
autism brain, shutdowns, Pride march
@pink_ink
I am right there with you, it's too chaotic and I can't handle it. And where I live it's usually hot and sunny and I'm so bad at tolerating heat, too. *autism solidarity sad high five* I still haven't been and the one near me is supposedly a fun time but there's too much noise and crowds and accidental physical contact.
food, sensory issues
@pink_ink yes same, it's so slimy!! D: D: D: I don't eat much meat either because if there's gristle in there it's like AGH GET IT OUT OF MY MOUTH.
and yes definitely!!! I only found out I'm autistic within the last few years or so, so it's been a journey of being like "oh, THAT'S why this bothers me" and adjusting to accomodate it. apparently loud noises don't physically hurt other people's ears usually :'D
food
@pink_ink No worries!! I have sensory issues re: my brain too, and crunchy bits in a cake would be Uncomfortable. Something about the texture of lasagna makes my brain go NOPE NOPE NOPE, too.
Yesssss definitely :D The best kind of breakfast
mh, abuse -
@pink_ink thanks <3 <3 Trauma brain is the worst sometimes
mh, abuse -
she better leave me alone tomorrow and not even call me, I don't want to hear from a single member of biological family
mh, abuse -
I've definitely been improving over the years since I got out of that house but I still have so much to work on and I wish my brain would give me a break for a while
although I guess days like this, when tiny things keep giving me mini flashbacks, are proof that biomother did traumatize me and I'm not making it up
food
@pink_ink the sprinkles dissolve!! so it's basically vanilla cake with fun colored little smudges inside. There's no flavor difference but I like bright colors so funfetti cake is more fun than regular. π Also omg carrot cake π That is also delicious!! I love every kind of cake, though, cake is just great. And cake for breakfast is the best - that's how I've been eating most of this cake
(thank you!! :D)
@pink_ink feel better! <3
27, they/them, autistic, queer, winged rabbit furry. Midwest USA.