i just don't really feel worth anything because all i do here is keep upsetting someone and there'll always be someone better to replace me and whenever i'm gone things will just continue normally so it's hard to feel like staying is a right thing to do like subjecting everyone here to me is not a fair thing
and whenever i'm not upsetting someone i'm getting upset envying others for having things i can't and i can't stop myself from being a bad person about it